LOAF

What if I say, “I still love you”?
What if I say, “I really miss you”?
What if I say, “I’m stupid for saying all this. But its just what my heart wants to say”?
All these thoughts run through my mind and I just can’t help but think about you more than ever.
You’ve hurt me repeatedly. But only because I let you.
You never wanted to hurt me but I put myself in that position.
Our friendship did mean a lot to you because you were always willing to help fix it. Sometimes more than others. But you still tried.
I hurt you. Now, to be honest, I feel like you still need me in your life. I helped you even out the things you feel weren’t right. Atleast thats what I believe.
My mind is crazy. I’m crazy. That is what I’m really saying.

Will are paths cross again? Will we speak to each other once more? Will we admit what are hearts felt during our time apart? Well…I still ask myself this question which I cannot seem to find an answer for no matter how hard I try. Why do I still miss you so much? I beginning to cave in and just hope something between us will happen to make my mind straight. You became someone I deeply cared for but have turned into someone I never knew. It always seems that no matter how bad you made me feel at times, all I can ever think about is the good times. Through thick and thin, through having no contact for weeks to months and still being able to overcome them. Is this another test we have to overcome of each other? Or is this the end of our history? I want to reach out for your answer but I can’t find the strength to. Atleast not now. I question if I even should. You were everything I ever wanted. I wouldnt quit until I had you. But now I have to keep myself from trying again. If only you can find out about my thoughts and really think them about what I’m going through.

I hate that when friends always need someone by their side to help them with their problems, I will always be the one person to step in and take time away to help them feel better. But I dont get the same treatment back. Do they take advantage of me? Why cant i get any help when i need it? Im a person with feelings too. Why cant people understand that?

for some reason…im PISSED OFF. why? i have no idea. is it because she was being stuck up? i need time to cool off. i gotta blow off some steam somehow. this is not good for me.

yanilavigne:

IN MY BEDROOM:

 

 IN BATHROOM:

WITH MY FRIENDS:

 

IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER:

 

IN A PARTY: